It doesn’t bother me that I live in a country whose values I don’t subscribe to, where we pray before every meeting and not going to church is akin to being a Satanist. Growing up here means I have to put up and shut up, and for the most part I do (because I like Gospel music, and ‘fellowship’ is just a fancy word for ‘socialize’). But I feel like some clarification is necessary.
I am not a Christian.
There, I said it. I don’t have to go to your churches, listen to your prayers or talk about your God. I do these things because despite my inherent evilness in not being a Christian, I actually like it. I will poke fun at Christians and Christianity and religion in general because I think everyone should be able to laugh at themselves, especially me. I’m never 100% sure what I believe in (except fairies!) so every time you ask, you will likely get a different answer. Last year I was agnostic. This year I am a Pantheist. Not being a Christian is not synonymous with atheism. I have never been (and will never be) an atheist, simply because I don’t put that much effort into ascertaining the existence of this God-concept. My God is not your God, but that does not make your God better than mine – what is this, primary school? Nor does it give you the right to tell me with dripping condescension that your God loves me anyway. I will probably laugh.
I’m not by nature a mean person, but when provoked to wrath by the all-too-frequent insensitivity of well-meaning Christians, I will don my anti-proselytizing shield and fight dirty. It’s tolerance or gtfo. Why is there such a big deal about who I mean when I say God anyway? I’m sure he/she/it doesn’t care what I call him/her/it.
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I like the honesty in this. (And thanks for the Wikipedia link; I had no idea what Pantheism was, and funny enough what came to mind was if it’s etymologically connected to “Pantheon”.)
Ah, etymology~ That means you’re thinking along the right wavelengths :)
By the way, this brought to mind the difference between the Jewish and Christian cultures. For Jews, the definition of ‘Jewish’ is more founded in action than belief. So, don’t believe in a literal G-d? Fine, no worries. Believe that everything from Adam to Abraham was just allegory? Fine. You’re not keeping Shabbat?! WHAT?! You’re going vegan? You know that you can’t be a real Jew and not eat meat, right…?
That’s definitely interesting. I’d like a community of people where actions and not words were the order of the day.